PART 1 OF 2: Solo Trip to Bahamas - the Who, the Why and the What

I have never done a solo trip like this. I have gone away for weekend retreats when my kids were young, two nights tops. But like this, never ever!

I have been interested in a silent retreat one day but not yet, it hasn't truly called me yet. Likely because I have done so much deep inner work and adjusted my whole insides the last few years...I have spent many times in stillness, 6 yoga/meditation retreats in Costa Rica...that alone has shifted my internal state...but pile on the subconscious work and the spiritual tools I have learned and integrated in life, my mind is in a great place always, little to no lack thoughts. Sure I have doubt, or those sneaky negative thoughts come....but I have trained them not to stay long and to adjust to something unconditionally loving....that's a whole other story, well the basis of all my coaching work truly...to be continued!

But this BIG MAGICAL IDEA as I call it, came to me years ago, from Robin Sharma, about going to Paris for a month to write his next book. And I thought, "Oh I want to do that". That was actually calling me. I didn't know when, or how. The 3 kids are out of the house technically but they come and go. Some are in co-op during the school year so they are home. Some are home for summer jobs. So truly, I didn't see how this could work for me. One of the reasons is, I am the main cook in the family...I am the main house manager. Maybe you can relate.

But the power of speaking things out loud is what made this happen.

THE HOW

I started telling people I was writing 3 books. I have been writing on and off for 10 years. But I had kept it quiet. So the last year, I decided to speak it, like it was part of my life and not to hide it anymore. The fear of failure or fear of never following through or fear of what a friend would think...I've had this thought, if I share I am doing this big thing and it makes them feel less of themselves then I just won't share it. But what I have learned is we have to do the opposite. The Universe wants us to share in order to inspire others to follow their dreams. And so I did.

Within the year, my husband and I were in Bahamas for a short vacation...many months ago. We have friends who live here, who moved here from Toronto about 7 years ago. We went to their home for dinner. I don't know when I told my friend, but I told her about this idea that I want to go somewhere for a month to write my book. I literally didn't hold on to that, didn't over think it. I didn't stress over it. I just said it and let the Universal field take it and play with it....it's better to see all of this as fun, truly.

She is one of my biggest cheerleaders and I knew it was safe to share with her. And I forgot all about it.

Many months later, she texted me and said "Hey, wondering if you wanted to come here and watch the dog and cat and our new ocean front condo in August. We have two trips and could use someone we know living here with the animals". I almost fell over. I remember immediately texting my biz coach and leaving her a voice text with excitement, this manifestation was coming true, way sooner than I had imagined. (Side note: that is how the Universe can work...when you live from an abundant state and are open to surprises and delights)!

But I couldn't swing a month...or I will say, I made a choice to come for 2 weeks so I am home when my youngest goes back to University and I want to be there to move her back in.

THE WHY

So the why is easy....why did I want this in the first place. Well, I am a mani-gen in Human Design. And if you know anything about this, I have a lot of fabulous ideas all day every day and I have this soul desire to just be so immersed in the book when I get writing it.   I know myself. You have to know yourself...self discovery is a stage I entered years and years ago...so if you are just starting, just start please...your future self will thank you! Trust me!

At home, I am distracted by home tasks, the kitchen, the laundry, door bells ringing... and even though I am able to focus and get things done at home, I knew to get this book off the ground,  my soul needed alone time and quiet to get the juices flowing. And what better place than in front of the ocean...if you are a water sign like me....being in front of water, without even doing much....lifts my soul, ignites my soul. It's magical truly..subtle yet obvious if you know what I mean.

I truly know my soul needs space to create and a quiet mind and open heart and I knew I would get going on it if I was somewhere by myself.  Many writers suggest setting aside one hour a day to write. I tried that. It didn't feel aligned. I was doing what others were saying I "should" do and if you have worked with me, you know the SHOULD'S and BINU don't align!!!

And I didn't feel immersed in having my soul express fully. And so...here for a week, I needed a few days to get settled, get used to the dog and cat I am sitting, their routines, my routines, getting groceries in a town I am new in, no car, very hot heat....getting my morning workouts in....and so yes, after a few days, I sat down and wow, so much poured out of me. I literally may be finished the book writing before I come home...you will have to wait for part 2 of this blog....

THE WHAT

What the heck have I been doing you may ask? LOL. So here is the run down....got groceries, have been cooking great meals for myself in my friends brand new kitchen over looking the ocean(protein first, veggies, healthy fats, fresh fruits, low grains and sugar- my menopausal meals now and boy do they make me feel fantastic), so divine....I have been going to the gym almost everyday, with long walks on the off day...and I have progressed my workouts here as I have the time and space....making me realize that when I get home, I won't want to take any calls, clients or coaches or discovery calls or coffee chats until after 11 am....I am lifting heavier and also challenging myself on the treadmill with more incline walks...I went to two reformer pilates classes, ocean side pilates studio, outdoors...like heaven, wowza! I walked to a boutique and tried on $400 dresses (more than I usually like to spend on a sundress (this is choice not lack...hint hint for money relationship talk another time) and bought myself a cute ;short and tank' dressy set for $200! I felt good with that!

Oh and I went to a college basketball game over at Bahamar. It's the big resort near by, a ten minute walk and I saw they had a big summer league. We are a basketball family, if my son was a few inches taller, her likely would be playing University ball...funny but true! So I bought a ticket and went to a game. I enjoyed the air conditioning and being around people the most haha. The game was okay...I like games better when I know who is playing...realized that during this game!

I talk to the dog and cat. It's funny but if you have animals you know. I sit still a lot , at home and here at the beach, in the pool, with my coffee in the morning watching the sun rise.

STILLNESS HAS BEEN MY GAMECHANGER IN MY LIFE, IN MY THOUGHTS, WITH MY ENERGY.

I often get women telling me they love my energy, they can feel my energy....and I say this not from EGO but from inspiration...I have created this state...it's an abundant state within me now...it's pure unconditional love within me, every where I go, not just with people I don't know...with all...this is literally the foundation of everything I teach because it's what has transformed me...it's going in my book FYI so the BINU METHOD (playing with this idea) is coming out to a book stand near you haha...just playing...but serious...

I have been editing some videos in my old coaching programs from last year that I ran live...some when I watched them back, made me so freakin inspired and alive that I knew I need to make these ever-green programs, ones always available for self paced work for people who are new to follow me. It's coming...THE ABUNDANCE CODE is coming!!! 

I have been in an instagram posting challenge for daily posts so I am working on that. I am editing videos I did before I left home, I am creating new ones as the downloads come in, and the downloads are plenty here. I am having so much fun with it and what all the content creators I learn from say...if you aren't having fun, then why bother...and I will add, if you aren't having fun, you won't continue...and this is a long game, not a short game...I am here for the long game. So many millions of people to inspire and impact...why stop....anyways....

My husband showed up yesterday for three nights..and we are going out for an awesome fancy dinner tonight and I am so excited for that. 

Some may wonder how my husband and daughter at home are managing without me. Hubby isn't a big cook...he works long hours so yes I felt bad leaving him to cook on his own. I left a few frozen meals as I am the cook between us. My daughter cooks but is also working long hours in an internship. To keep this short, I talk to my family about these things that seem against the grain, that I don't see other moms doing. That guilt wants to override in my head but I don't let it...I take action right away by speaking to my family...

They only encourage me...we joke about how they will manage and how I will manage. We talk almost everyday. I love tech for this!

But you know, when something so strongly is puling you and the universe responds with offering you an ocean front condo for two weeks to start writing and maybe even finish the first draft of this one book that has been nudging me....YOU SAY YES! You must pay attention to the evidence the Universe puts in front of you...most people miss the responses they are asking for.

At least I did...the rest works itself out. My hubby and girl get to strengthen their relationship without me there. I show my girls that you don't have to do what society says you should do...as women this is important to me, to have them see me doing what not alot of moms do. So they are learning by my role modelling how important it is to follow your own heart and what feels GOOD for you and what is TRUE for you. Society rules are always going to be there pulling you away from YOU! WE ARE HERE TO BE OURSELVES fully...and I want them to see what is possible!

And I get to experience following my soul's guidance, my intuition, my dreams.

So yes I have had moments of boredom, but also enlightenment. Be alone long enough and you get clarity on many things. I am journalling, and speaking things out loud. I am in the ocean feeling the grandness of this world and the connection I have to it. I am speaking to the Universe, my guides, God and my angels all day everyday, more than I do at home...and that alone is bringing me incredible ideas, and incredible insights about my next few months and my next year.

I feel more at ease than ever. I feel a depth of calm, next level...there is always a next level to experience and I just hit another. I feel healthier than ever in my 55 year old body...creating new habits here for health and for my wealthy mind....so much is evolving.

So with that...that's all I have for you today. I hope you enjoyed this and will continue to take one thing from all that I share. I share because truly I feel guided to and know one person can take one thing away for them and that's my purpose.

With love and until the end of another week here, where I will share more.

Binu

ps. If you read to the end, as I know this is long, would love to hear your thoughts....I am working on my blogging skills and want you to know...NO AI WAS CONSULTED ON THIS BLOG...I am free writing...hope the pics aren't too huge when you read....working on figuring out how to adjust those....what one thing got your attention for you in your life? I am curious and it's always better when I hear from people after I write or do a solo podcast....it helps me to keep going..validation isn't needed but girl does it help!! I am human just like everyone else!